Being Busy is a Decision

"How we spend our days, of course, is how we spend our lives," Annie Dillard. 

I could not help but stop years ago when I first heard these words.

The awareness hit me like a rock. 

Life is not something different from all the time that we use to be busy, to be stressed, to be angry, to criticise, to suffer, to be unhappy or dissatisfied. 

Life is not a different story. Life is the same story.

Being always busy, speeding at 200 kph in our life, pursuing one goal after another without ever enjoying the present properly is running at 200 kph against our death. 

Thank you very much, but I quit. 

I quit this madness. I quit a job that takes away the possibility that I will feel the warmth of the sun on my skin. I quit a relationship that pays a small interlude of passion, but takes away my freedom and my air the rest of the time, I quit any situation that wastes my precious time. 

I want to go slowly, very slowly indeed.

I want to taste everything fully and broadly.

Being hyper-productive is a diktat in our society.

I choose efficiency instead: I choose to work less and earn more. 

Filling my diary with events, tasks, appointments, happenings and contacts is a must these days.

I choose to spend time with me and those I love the most because I don’t want to discover that I have wasted this time only when I don’t have it anymore.

Watching vapid quarrelling on TV, listening to the gossip of friends, criticising or judging others, believing what most people think… I'm not interested in that anymore, thank you.

I spend that same amount of time playing sports, reading things that I'm passionate about, feeling involved with people who enrich me.

I choose to choose all the time what makes me feel great. I won’t settle for less.  

Do you know the most beautiful thing I did today for a whole hour? I was sitting on the floor in my pyjamas looking at my kitten, who is just a few weeks old, play with his mother, a special show of tenderness and love that has filled my heart with joy and gratitude like nothing else can. 

My life is more important than any FB post and email.

Now that I choose, I’m in bliss.